This isn’t so much a post as it is an apology. A reminder to myself and all of you that I’m not there yet, not by a long shot. It’s evidence of my continuing habit of overextending myself and trying to conquer the world just one more time. Not literally, of course. You would have seen something about that on the news or something.
I keep coming back to this. I overreach my limits, convinced that this time I’m strong enough. This time I’m going to be able to do it. This time I can manage. And usually, I can manage. But it’s at the price of my sleep, my sanity, making friends, doing things I actually want to do. And I always regret it. And then I always do it again.
This week, for example, I bit off more than I can chew for my work schedule. I’m voluntarily working more hours than anyone should work in a single day. And I know I can get through it. Prayerfully, I will get through it in a way that glorifies God and honors the people I work with. And maybe this time I’ll finish and remember to never try it again.
I’m also continuously reminded of the bloggers that inspired me to begin this journey. They had no fear about dropping their day-to-day lives and worked hard enough to make a full-time living off of their writing. I wish I was there in some ways, but I’m not. This is a project I’m prepared to spend a good amount of time on, but in between the responsibilities in my life that time will change and shift around.
I’m not sure what that looks like yet. I’m still trying to figure out what my consistent schedule is going to look like. But I’m so glad to be taking this journey with all of you, and I’m glad for everyone who sticks with me as we go.
So while the blog may grow and change, I’m not going anywhere. I’ll be doing my best to get content to y’all regularly. And I’m excited to see what the future holds.
If you’re a perfectionist and an overachiever like me, I want you to know something. It’s okay to drop what you need to drop to get back to thriving instead of just surviving. It’s okay to take breaks, to reassess, to ask yourself if you really need this commitment or that commitment. And most of all, it’s okay to step back and ask yourself if your self-inflicted responsibilities are getting in the way of you glorifying God and finding peace in Him.
I don’t advise people to give up. I very much believe that you have to struggle and fight to achieve what you want to achieve. But I do think that it’s important to watch out for yourself a bit and listen to the people around you. Figure out where your limits are, set yourself a guardrail a few feet back, and that’s where you’ll want to live. That’s where your life will be most rewarding and full. And you’ll be a little more sane than I have been recently.
How do you fight your tendencies to overachieve and make everything perfect? What other tendencies get in the way of you living the way you want to – the way God has called you to?